Hurricane Sandy is ruining my life.

Hello peoples. I hate Hurricane Sandy. Sandy has caused me to miss now four days of school but unlike my peers I actually WANT school. I can't go out and do anything fun and we have Tuesday off anyways... The play I'm in opens now on FRIDAY we were supposed to open tomorrow night and I should be out trick or treating now, I have the best costume but you'll have to wait for next Wednesday to see that. (hehehehe)

I really have been in the mood to just clean my room, read a book or two, rewatch Midnight in Paris, and just sleep. I feel like I should go do that and stop being moody on the interwebz. Oh wells.


ALSO you should go listen to Bigger Than Love by Ben Gibbard on his new album Former Lives. I love it and it's inspired by Fitzgerald letters. UGH SO PERFECT

I just want to listen to sad music and cry

This is just going to be a post to complain. I'm sorry it will be whiney and sucky and needy and something not anyone would ever want to read but I need to get it out there since every time I decide I want to open up and share it with someone their ride gets here or they are tired and have to go to sleep or I get the feeling that they just don't even really care.

I've always heard that junior year was supposed to be a hard year but it really sucks. I have so much work to do for my history class and no time at all to do it. I have rehearsal all the time and still need to read two chapters, do flashcards and outline 3 out of the 4 possible essay questions while learning all of the material again just in case I've forgotten it. Then I should get a head start on the coming chapters because I won't have any time at all to do them with all of the rehearsals. Film study has been my little break throughout the day and helps me calm down about everything but then it's my english class which I love but don't have time for the work to do. Chem is hopeless on me, I hate it. Study hall is my savior, I miss my old latin teacher, I hate my math teacher and want to have a new one, and band is a nice way to end my day but I have no time to practice. I never see my friends anymore. I just want to sleep all the time.

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Sunday Mornings

I love Sunday mornings. I love them when they are the mornings when you get to sleep in as late as you would want to, and then are surprised with a breakfast you love. You just lie around in your pj's for the rest of the day, and enjoy the simple little things.

Sorry I haven't been on in so long, I have been so tremendously busy with school, APUSH will be the death of me. I am also in a play and have rehearsal everyday (excluding weekends) so those have been taking up my time so far. I got a job recently! I'm starting to TA at a place and had my first day yesterday and I really loved it. I linked my blog here to my email I am on most commonly so I can blog whenever I want without having to switch accounts.

Junior year has been kicking my butt. I am taking the PSATs on Wednesday and I'm quite nervous for them,  apparently the sophomores are taking them with us but I don't remember that last year. I get to bring my french horn in on Monday though since we might be doing concert band music, I hope that I'll be able to do well for that class, I meant to bring my mouthpiece home and I forgot. FJSDKFJKLDSGJk;f.

I went to J.T.'s last night, and on Friday night. On Friday, he went with his mom to pick me up from my rehearsal since my dad had to go to my sister's field hockey game and my mom had a work thing. So they got me and J.T. made me a grilled cheese (my favourite) and we went off to the football game. I also borrowed a Gryffindor scarf and proudly wore it at the game. It was a really lovely night. Then last night we watched two little boys in exchange for dinner and movie date thing one weekend sometime soon. It was nice. I then fell asleep on J.T's bed.... whoops... I napped until my parents got me.

Hope you guys are all having a lovely week and I am off to do laundry and clean and get a head start on homework.

Autumn Playlist

We are finally in my favourite season! I follow Kayley's blog and she recently posted an Autumn Playlist of her own! I loved hers and decided to make one of my own! Here it is!

1. Chicago- Sufjan Stevens
2. Holocene- Bon Iver
3. To Be Alone With You- Sufjan Stevens
4. Down In The Valley- The Head and the Heart
5. New Year's Eve- Mal Blum
6. I Will Wait- Mumford and Sons
7. My Favourite Book- Stars
8. Still Fighting It- Ben Folds
9. Criminal- Fiona Apple
10.Baltimore- Mal Blum
11.New Slang- The Shins
12. Skinny Love- Bon Iver
13. This Year- The Mountain Goats
14. Valentine- Fiona Apple
15. It's Time- Imagine Dragons
16. Call Them Brothers- Regina Spektor & Only Son

This is what I have for now! I'm sure I'll find more soon and will make an updated post of this soon enough!
Here is a link to the playlist on Youtube!

Enjoy your Sunday! I've got myself a pumpkin spice latte so I will be enjoying mine. (:

Rachel Watches Too Much T.V.

Right now I am currently watching Saturday Night Live and Joseph Gordon-Levitt is just the best. My love for him has come back (did it ever really leave?) I just wanted to talk about how much I loved this show. It' always so funny and Seth Meyers is great and attractive and my gosh I love him. I just love a lot of people.

I also watched Doctor Who tonight. I really loved it, it felt like oldNewWho was back and made me happy. It just made me wish that season six and seven were more like that episode. I love the Ponds so much and I just want to be Amy so badly. Is that too much to wish for?

I feel like this year I've had so much homework already. Tomorrow (err today...) I get to read two chapters of my history textbook, take notes on them, do an additional three chapters reading after that and then I have my AP Lang and Comp homework. That is one of the homeworks I don't mind doing at all. I also had film study but I finished that. I had to write a journal and recast The Graduate. We just had to cast Ben, Mrs. Robinson and Elaine. Here's my cast lit:

Ben- Joseph Gordon-Levitt.  Yes I love him but that has nothing to do with my choice for him to be Ben. He can handle the awkwardness of Ben in the start of the film and I must admit I find that Ben is a stalker/creeper. Joe played Tom in (500) Days of Summer who sort of reminds me of this and he can handle it.

Mrs. Robinson- Colbie Smulders. She is Robin on HIMYM but on some episodes Robin has been quite the attractive gal on like every episode. And I can totally see her seducing someone. She is only 32 years old but with the work of movie magic, she can look a bit older. I also think she can play the mother of my Elaine.

Elaine- Alexis Bledel. Yes Ms. Rory Gilmore as my Elaine. I know she can handle her innocence at the start of the film (hello Rory Gilmore) and will be able to play her hurt and in love with Ben and SHE CAN DO IT ALRIGHT.


THEY JUST CUT JGL'S CLOSING SPEECH OFF WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYY. I guess I should go to bed. ugh i don't want to get up early tomorrow. why do i have to?

goodnight peoples.

Humph

Today is a sucky day. I guess (even though I really don't want to say this) the sucky day started last night. I just have so much homework to do and I am totally not ready at all for it. I just want to go watch tv shows or moulin rouge or something like that. But no back to rewriting an essay I go. Not even Mumford & Sons can cheer me up.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I'll blog something nicer.

Blargh

Sorry I haven't posted in so long, I have started my junior year and boy oh boy is it taking up a lot of my time! I like most of my classes minus a few, *cough cough* that means you APUSH *cough cough* Other than that, things are going well, I managed to play at my very first football game, despite my hatred of the mellophone, pass a very challenging summer reading test for my AP Lang and Comp class, and we've started the graduate in my film study class. We've only seen about the first 15 minutes but I already want to keep watching.

We are in the process of a long weekend, I actually won't have a full week of school until October 17th. How awesome is that!? While I love long weekends, I usually don't feel like doing anything, but this weekend will be different! All of the sudden I have the sudden urge to clean my room, this urge does not come often mind you. But I just really want to clean everything and then rearrange a few pieces of furniture in my room. I just hung up a definition of love (after buying it last summer) and I am blaming that for my urge to rearrange everything. I also cleaned my basement last night so go me.

Today is the 16th of September and it is my one year anniversary with my boyfriend. We hung out last night and watched Doctor Who and showed him one of my all time favorite films Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. He loved it, which is great because I love it and love to rewatch it. As I am typing this blog post, I am listening to the soundtrack for it on spotify, it's so beautiful. It's just so great, I love it so much. jfsdkjfklghlfsg. But last night was a really great night and is one of my all time favorites. After finishing the film we had a discussion about whether or not we would erase the other if something happened to us and we both decided that we wouldn't, that the pain is apart of who we are and it's cowardish of us to erase the other.

Well I better go start reorganizing everything. I want to move my boy dresser to where my nightstand is now but I have no idea where to put everything. I feel like everything is so squished in my room. Oh well, I'm going to go clean now, maybe I'll blog more later but tonight I am going to JT's house for our one year. (:

I am not ready for school.

School starts tomorrow. I have finished all of my homework. Yay. I am really not looking forward for starting school this year. All of the sudden I feel like I cannot go. I am scared. Not scared, petrified. Everything is changing which really sucks. Two of my classes are APs, and I took one last year and it was okay. I think I'll really like the English but will hate APUSH. That's how the homework went for me.

I also have no idea what to wear. At all. I have so many different options but none of them seem right. Maybe it's time I read some Jessica Darling and feel better about myself.

Tomorrow I will be a junior at high school, weighing 123 pounds and hating every minute of it.

Today was a success!

Chapter six is done!
I went shopping and got some really awesome pieces and just felt awesome (minus for me being a total Mia Thermopolis)
Put away the clean laundry I did today
Mowed some of the lawn (it started to pour so I went in)

tomorrow my mom is waking me up at 6 in the morning... hopefully 6:30 but this way I can get ready for school and stuff since it starts WEDNESDAY DX

I need to go shower and convince my boyfriend to finish his work and call me.


also I'll do flash cards tomorrow. cause I have to.

LET'S GET DOWN TO BUSINESS!

Hello folks! Yep I'm making another list for today. I just wanted to tell you I already put my laundry in the washer this morning- GO ME! So I might as well just hop into my list to do for today!

1. Chapter Six of APUSH! Then I am done with outlining and quote synthesis and questions.
2. Mow the lawn- just play your favorite playlist and go!
3. Do flashcards for chapters 2-6. And finish gilmore girls while doing that and try to finish season 3 of the office.
4. shower after mowing the lawn like ew that is all gross
5. go to the mall for back to school shopping! :D
6. make sure you have a list of what you really need at the mall, not what you want... but go to francescas collections cause I love their clothes.

OKAY I AM GOING TO GET TO WORK...... After I listen to my favorite motivational song from Mulan, I'll make a man out of you.... don't lie it's your favorite too.

What I really did today...

So I made a list of what I had to do and this is what I actually did:

1. Put my laundry in a basket... That's a start right?
2. Got through ch. 4 and 5, I will do 6 tomorrow.
3. I didn't even start flashcards or studying flashcards.
4.I haven't read my books at all, I want to reread the Jessica Darling series still.
5. You can sleep when you're dead.
6. Let's not even talk about Sept. 16th.

On the bright side I might get to go to the mall tomorrow! But I also have to mow the lawn. Ew. I'm getting up early to do that showering and doing ch. 6. Then onto flashcards to be made and watching the final disc of gilmore girls. I am not happy that I am done with the show, it's been with me for so long but I am glad to see an ending, even if I don't feel ready for it. I also have season three of the office to finish so I always have that.

I'm thinking of doing an episode tracker at the bottom of each blog post, I also have to decide what to watch  next, I have lots of things to watch... Maybe I'll make a blog post on it?

Well I think I will go call my boyfriend and go to sleep.

Night!

Determination

I start my junior year of high school on Wednesday. I am so not ready for that. I cannot believe I am almost done at my school yet I have so far to go. I really shouldn't be on blogger but I figured that I could let myself write a blog post if I wrote out what I had to do. So let's get down to it.


THINGS I HAVE TO DO TODAY(well before Wednesday

1. Laundry, I hate it but I need to have clean clothes for the first day of school.
2. Get to mid chapter 6 of APUSH OR Finish APUSH Outlining and questions. (I'm in the end of chapter for so that should be easy)
3. Start Flashcards for APUSH chapter 2-6, I can watch TV while I do these.
4. Study flashcards from lang &comp second packet
5. Finish "The Mysterious Benedict Society" and "The Rivals" they're due back on the 29th! (27th for benedict)
6. Get on a better sleeping schedule (I don't care if it makes mom right you want to have sleep for junior year)
7. Calm down about Sept. 16. It's no big deal, it's just a year.

That's it for now, I must go and finish chapter four! It's only like 3 more sections then a quote and questions and hello chapter five.

Things that make me happy

Here is a list of what make me happy

• Red Velvet Cupcakes/Froyo- the best thing I have ever had in my entire life. If I get married, I want red velvet cupcakes for my wedding.
• Wes Anderson Films- I have seen all of his films (minus Bottle Rocket, still working on getting a copy of that!) and I have loved everyone of them (even Fantastic Mr. Fox which stars George Clooney and I hate him). I love the angles he takes when he films and the colors and the stories are so great. I think Moonrise Kingdom is my favorite, it's very close with The Darjeeling Limited too. I just love all of them.
• Harry Potter- do I really need to explain this one?
• Goodreads- this is my favorite social networking site, partly because I love seeing what others are reading and also for giving me great reccomendations. 
• Apple Cinnamon Tea- this is my all time favorite tea. It can make me smile no matter what and I love it.
• Pumpkin Spice Latte- I feel like everyone loves these BUT THEY ARE SO GOOD.
• The Jessica Darling Series- One of the only series I've ever read that is about a teenage girl who is like a real teenage girl. I absolutely adore her sarcastic, snarky, witty personality and I aim to be her in my life.
• Watching Youtube Videos- I love finding youtubers who I simply adore and watching all of their videos, same goes for reading all of their blog posts (I'm working on kayleyhyde's right now).
• T.V. Show Marathons- this is the best thing in the world, same can be said for movie marathons
• Certain Broadway Cast recordings (Once is so great go listen to it on spotify)
• Writing on this blog. I really like doing this and wish I wrote more this month and tried to do BEDA. Maybe next year! (:
  
  I think I'll end my list here. I'm currently finishing my lang & comp journals and listening to "Gold" from Once. I am dying to go see this. Goodnight my readers! Today was a much better day.

Pretty Much The Worst Day Ever

        Today sucks. Literally sucks. I might as well say this now, I threw up in the middle of my permit test and failed. By one question. Who does that? Seriously? I have never been more embarrassed in my life. Well I probably have but this was a moment I will never forget. It also doesn't help that someone who I am not friends with anymore got their permit today. I honestly though don't know why I need to get a permit, I mean I am planning on living in a city when I get older and hopefully going to the UK, you don't need cars for a city and the UK drives backwards compared to what we do.

        Honestly the only things making today better are the fact that I have a great marathon to watch on my computer (2 Wes Anderson films and then Little Miss Sunshine and then season 3 of the office), a boyfriend who loves me, and my blog to write/complain about. Fantastic Mr. Fox is really great so far, I'm enjoying it a lot and The Darjeeling Limited is one of my all time favorite films and we're getting Outback for dinner. Clearly today cannot be redeemed though because I threw up at the DMV. Wow. Let me go die in a hole. AlsoIneedtofinishmysummerhomework. Meh.

Where has summer gone?

I am not happy with the fact that it is August 21, and I start school on the 29. I am not ready to give up my summer in return for two AP classes! Not to mention I still have to read 3 1/2 more chapters of a text book, answer 12ish questions and make nearly 90 flashcards for one of them, (the other is four journals but I actually don't mind doing those). I am pretty stressed out over the whole APUSH thing, I mean I am really excited for AP Lang & Comp (because I got the BEST teacher to have for this class) but APUSH is going to be a challenge. I've never had the teacher but remembered feeling sorry for my friends who did freshman year.

I also cannot help but wonder what will happen this year. I will be a junior. I will have to start looking for colleges. I will have to start growing up. I will be in a relationship for a year. What friends will I lose this year? Will I make new ones or gain the old ones back? This coming year is simply a realm of possibility. I could be a really sucky president for my school's GSA or maybe suck at playing the french horn. I am terrified. I do not want to go into junior year or take APUSH. I just want to go watch lots and lots of t.v. shows. I have gotten pretty addicted to watching t.v. shows this summer, my latest obsession is Up All Night. I just really love Will Arnett.

I have to accept that I cannot change what is coming and I might as well go finish chapter 3 in this text book so I can watch an episode of Up All Night.

Dear Library,

Dear Library,
WHY DO YOU NOT HAVE THE BOOKS I WANT?! We seem to have a love-hate relationship. We get along when you have the books I am dying to read, yet most of the time, you seem to have NO SELECTION. Why don't you get the new releases? Do you realize how much it sucks when I see peoples' videos on youtube of that new release from their Libraries and then you are just like "lol nope. not going to have that. ever. sucks for you."

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?

Speaking Eloquently

You've Got Mail. This is by far one of my favorite movies, I mean you've got Nora Ephron, Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan, and a bookstore involved what can go wrong? While this flick is down right charming, it helped me notice something that has been bothering me for a while. In this movie, the two main characters converse over email with the audience hearing their narration of it, I can't help but hear how eloquent they sound while typing and how it irks me that people don't do that today. 


John Green is someone who does this as well. I adore all of his novels and one of the main reasons is that he has smart characters in his books. They all seem to have such profound thoughts that teenagers don't tend to have. Why is it that how they speak is more appealing to all yet no one tries to speak that way? Why is it that a profound thought is something that seems to be once in a blue moon in real life yet in books and movies and television shows, the characters always speak the right things and have the right way to say them. There is no confusion over what they mean but everything is perceived perfectly. Why is it that literature and film and whatnot now seems less realistic even though the creators of it are trying to make it more realistic.  


At the same time I feel as though I have fallen under this, I typically do not speak like this in normal life, but being behind my laptop with a cup of apple cinnamon tea somehow makes the words flow out of me and have me making profound revelations. Perhaps I have being doing this too much and should go engage in other things that are considered "the teenage norm". What even is the norm? Does anyone know? Or is this something supposed to be agreed on by my generation?


I think I'll just return to my book of Bradbury short stories and pretend I'm much more mature and eloquent than I actually am.

Why am I so awkward?

Hello internet... I have just recently decided I want to start blogging. So I made this, I am also making mac n cheese. It is cars shapes. The water has just finished boiling. So I ate my food. This is so boring. But HELLO! I am Rachel. I am 16 years old, and I am a very big nerd. I am happily taken and I love my friends. I just wanted to start a blog cause people I like on youtube have and it looks like fun. So here we are! I think I will later fill out a tag or a get to know me thing. I've got to clean my room now.